Erase

Denial has kept me in her arms 

I am safe 

Here terrified 

Wind displaces falling water 

Your mistrust, my mistrust 

Displaced me miles from 

Where when the raindrop separated itself 

From the cloud 

From the collection of like bodied beings 

From the denial that if it held on 

It could pretend that it was 

Not rain, for its true, it hadn’t yet 

Fallen 

But its potential outweighed its fear 

Clipped a second too soon like a fruit 

From a branch severed with scissors 

Not by its own 

Choice 

Denial, you have taken me, displaced me 

Far from my homeland 

Retracing my steps across landscapes 

The erotic notion of the temporary 

My weight pours like magma 

Erases like sand 

In the feverish scattered band 

Of beliefs that distance will sustain me 

From my own illness 

Sold to me 

Scarcely, pleadingly bought 

Save me from myself 

Stretching the tendon so taut

Running from a storm up a dune

Sand burying the trace

Betraying my lifted climb 

I have a feeling I will never find who I once was 

Before, You like a razor blade 

scathed a fault so vast 

Between hairs once so thin 

Ripened to become rich in resources 

Left with what has rotted

Safe in your arms 

I learned to erase myself

Brussels, Belgium